As Many Hours In A Day...

As Beyonce.

Yet, I can't seem to get anything done. 

I would like to point out the Queen Bey gets to focus all of her hours on being fabulous. Half of mine have to go into being a cashier at a huge chain of stores that are taking over the world. (I hate my job, but I still need it.) Another 40% of my hours are going into school. (That could count as making me fabulous...)

That leaves 10% of my day...to sleep and be lazy.

Yes on the seep, NO on the lazy. I need to get it together!

The other night I filmed two more videos. Now I only need to make the time to edit and upload. 

Off to school. And then work. 

Bye, my pretties!

YouTube channel?!

Hi everyone!

So, I turned 22 last week (cue TSwizzle) and decided to start a YouTube channel!

I'm really excited about this and have wanted to do it for a while. I posted my first video. It kind of sucks, but what do you do. I need to learn to edit! 

Anyway, I filmed a birthday haul where I ramble on about things I bought myself got for my birthday. I'm not sure how often I'll be able to upload though. I got really excited and filmed three videos yesterday, uploaded one last night and it took up a QUARTER of our anytime download allowance for the month. And it's the beginning of our cycle! (I have satellite.) 

That's a huge bummer because my laptop isn't very portable at the moment. I need to save for a new one. When I get one, I'll be able to upload at school :)

Thanks for watching!

(seeing my double chin in video deffff motivates me to lose weight. Pro/Con )

;) 

Links:

Nail Polish Rack from my momma

Acrylic Nail Polish Racks

Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay

Happy Valentine's Day!

Who out there loves Valentine's Day? 

I do.

Have I ever had a Valentine?

No.

But I still love Valentine's day/ 

I love that people are in love and are celebrating being in love. It's so sweet and happy. We live in a world that isn't very sweet and happy, so it's nice to celebrate.

Today I have to go to work (boo.) I really don't want to, but I'm a grown up. So I will. 

It's really something I need to work on. When I get sad or unhappy (I'll do a post on my depression at a later date. I'd like to be completely open about it, so I can help others in the same boat.) I start calling out of work and I'll just read or watch TV. It's so bad. Sometimes I just feel like I'm not living. I've been in SC for 6 months and I've hardly made a friend. I literally go to work, come home, and go to school. My bedroom is a disaster. It gets that way when I get this way. I feel like the world is closing in on me. 

My 22nd birthday is in two days and I have nothing to show for my 21st year.

How sad is that. If it wasn't for my twin encouraging me to blog, I probably wouldn't even be doing this. 

This whole blogging experience is amazing and I love it. When I get sad, I don't blog so the last few months have been nonexistent. Do any of you have any advice for me when it comes to dealing with sadness?  I have my good and bad days. Then I have days like today where it's both good and bad. I'm seriously considering calling off work and taking a personal day for myself. Is that bad? I've only worked one day this week, so probably. Goooossshhh. I'm so depressing, but I'm still posting this. Happier post tomorrow, I SWEAR! ;)

Li-Li-Liebster Award!

So, an awesome thing happened. 

Rachel from Not Two Normal nominated me for the Liebster Award! We recently met on insta (follow her here) and we bonded over Harry Potter and makeup. She's officially my girl crush. 

So...this Leibster thing. It's an awesome tag-ish award to show some love to fellow bloggers and show support. Now on to the fun stuff!

First, I'll answer Rachel's questions, then I'll tag some bloggers I love (including her. I don't care if she tagged me first.) Theeeen, I'll ask a few questions of my own. Let's start this biznatch. Yes, I said that. Yes, I'm keeping it in. 

Rachel's Questions:

1. What's up?  Seriously, what's happening right when you type this?

Well, I'm sitting on my messy bed in my messy room contemplating a shower. Snow day, yo. 

 2. How did you come up with your blog name?

My blog name is an actual nickname my Uncle uses for me. Jessica--Jessacana.

3. What is your favorite part about blogging?

My favorite part about blogging is definitely meeting new people. Like my bff Paulina

4. Least favorite?

I am a procrastinator. I need to stop putting blogging last. Also, blogging to a zero audience. Its a bummer. 

5. What's the very first outfit you can remember wearing?

I remember wearing a hideous floral dress with big pearl buttons and shoulder pads to kindergarten picture day. I was a fox. 

6.  What's the last makeup product you bought?

Oh.My.Goodness. I just went wild online shopping. I'll go with my last order. I literally just place an order to ulta.com and got the new Anastasia Brow mousse thing along with an Urban Decay lippy, some brushes, and an eyelash curler. I'm definitely doing a haul when all the stuff I've ordered comes in.

7.  Did you have an 'awkward' phase growing up?  Describe it!

Omgyes. Try A to D cup within months in the 6th grade, braces, acne, and an unfortunate hair moment. (think round brush cut out of hair with scissors.) *shudder

8.  What's your all-time favorite movie?

Singin' in the Rain

9.  What're you wearing as you type this? (how creepy does that sound, hah)

Pjs. Not the sexy kind. 

10. It's the weekend, do you go out, or prefer to stay in?  Why?

Stay in. I'm still new in town so I don't know many people yet.

11. What's your all-time favorite song?

Oh gosh. Elton John-Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters or Jason Mraz-The Remedy 

Bloggers I tag!

Not2normal

Paulina

Lisa

Alexia

Now, for my questions!

1.) Which Hogwarts House would you be in and why?

2.)If you could date/sleep with(your preference) a celeb, who would it be?

3.)What is your favorite book/series?

5.)What is your guilty pleasure?

6.) What was one of your new year's resolutions?

7.)What is your dream vacation?

8.) If you could have any job/career, what would it be?

9.) What is your most embarrassing moment?

10.) Proudest moment?

11.) If you could be someone else for a year, who would you be?

Thank you so much to Rachel to nominating me! I'm excited about coming back into the blogging world! definitely expect more things from me coming up! 

Motivation Monday #1-School Stress and Doggy Stress

Hello Dahlings.

I've decided to do some themed posts throughout the week and planned on starting with "Motivation Monday" today. But then I've had a stressful day and was like...how can I motivate myself and others on a day like this? Then I had a DUHH moment. There really is no better way to start a series like this. I need motivation...on "Motivation Monday." Perfect. 

It's really been a hell of a stress-packed day. 

First, at about 12:30 this morning, my dog peed the bed. MY bed. As her new owner, I didn't scold her because I knew it wasn't her fault, but boy was I pissed. I threw my sheets and blankets in the washer, gave her a bath, put an old top sheet on my bed and grabbed a throw from the couch and tried to go back to sleep. Then she did it AGAIN. I spent half the night researching and trying to find out what could be wrong. She was my grandmother's dog. My grandmother moved out and left Emma here. It's been weeks so I don't think it was anxiety from that. It's not like she moved houses or anything. I called the vet today and they think It might be a urinary tract infection. Poor Pooch :(

Then comes the school stress. My books are $873!!! What?? I'm  going to COMMUNITY college. Yes, I know that college is expensive, but 3 books that cost $150+ each? Ridiculous. I have $415 dollars left over from student aid, but that's still $458 that I don't have. 

First World Problems.

Today's "motivation" will be a list of positive things that happened/will happen today. 

1.) I applied for a car loan (fingers crossed) It's kind of an ugly car that makes 

a loud vibrating noise when you drive it. But it'll be mine. 

2.) Regardless of insane book prices, I'll be starting school!!

3.) I'm finishing my Harry Potter marathon with my mom later. 

4.) I woke up today, as did my loved ones. 

It's a good day. 

  

2014 New Year's Resolutions!

1.) Be healthier/ Lose 50lbs! Cliche? Yes. Serious? Also yes. 

2.) Blog three times a week. I love blogging and I want to get serious. 

3.) Get great grades in school. I'm going into my 

first semester of college in two weeks. I fell into depression and got terrible grades in HS. I don't want a repeat. 

4.) Save at least $50 from each paycheck. I want to visit my twin!

5.) Make a list of positive things every day. I want to be happier and be more positive. Hopefully I'll have less sad days. 

6.) Start a YouTube channel. It's something I've wanted to do

for a long time. I need to have courage. 

7.) Learn more about tea. A weird resolution, but I like tea. 

I reserve the right to add as I go along ;)

Anybody there?

Hello, I'm Jessica and I'm a blog procrastinator. 

It's not that I don't like it so I avoid it like the plague, it's just that I get discouraged.

But here I am. I'm blogging.

The last few days have been terrible in my slice of the world. I've had a dreadful cold and have been stuck in the house curled up in my messy room just wanting to die. But I didn't. I DID clean my room though. Finally. 

Does anyone else get into the kind of funks I get into? I'm so weird. I'll clean my room and love how clean and organized it is, then it'll gradually get messier until it looks like a tornado came through. Then, after a week of misery because my brain hates the mess, I spend 2 hours cleaning my room. It's a vicious cycle. 

I know that it will only take less than 10 minutes to clean up after myself everyday. I don't know why I'm so lazy. That's going to be a new year's resolution, I think. Along with losing weight (for real) and finally meeting my twin Paulina at Color Me Brave. 

Another New Year's Resolution will definitely be blogging. It's something that I love and I really want to get more into it. I want to make more friends and be happier, and I think it's a great first step. 

Au Revoir